What It’s Like to Date as a Special Needs Sibling?
The truth is, I worry about love. Who doesn’t?
You’re choosing someone to build your life with, and what happens if you make a bad choice? It’s not just about my happiness. It’s about my future children, my stability, and, in my case, my little brother.
The topic of caregiving has been on my mind since I reached a certain age, making me think more about the future; my career, my health, my responsibilities… everything. Love and relationships are a huge part of that. I’ve never doubted that I have the best friends around me…people who understand my role as a neurotypical sibling. But when it comes to love? That’s where the anxiety creeps in.
Not sure if you’ve noticed, but the dating pool is a big mess. I’d describe it as “shege” before finding real love” except if you’re God’s favorite and somehow skip the drama. My situation hasn’t been smooth, and I’d like to think that God is saving me for the one.
Unashamedly, I love romance, love, and everything in between! I believe that everyone deserves someone to share life with and that person should be the right one. But finding love as a neurotypical sibling means carrying questions and concerns that most people never have to think about.
Three Questions That Cloud My Mind
Will My Partner Understand My Commitment?
My sibling is not just part of my life; he is part of my identity. Will my future partner fully understand what that means? Will he stand beside me in my role or feel like he’s competing for my attention? The last thing I want is to feel torn between love and responsibility.
Will They See It as a Burden?
Love should be about mutual support, but will my partner view my role as a weight too heavy to carry? I fear that someone might struggle to accept that my sibling will always be a priority and, in turn, feel that I am not worth the effort.
What If They Don’t Want the Same Future?
My future isn’t just mine, it’s intertwined with my sibling’s needs. What if my partner envisions a life that doesn’t align with that? What if he doesn’t want the responsibilities that come with loving someone like me?
And then, there’s my brother. Will he find the love he deserves? The thought of someone taking advantage of him infuriates me. In my head, I’ve already fought battles, maybe even committed murder a few times (in theory, of course). But then, I’ve seen people with disabilities find love, beautiful, thriving, and real love. Still, the fear remains.
But Here’s What I Choose to Believe
Despite these worries, I choose to believe in a love that is understanding, resilient, and accepting. I have no reason to doubt that the person meant for me will support me in my role. God writes the best love stories, and I trust Him to write mine.
The right partner will recognize and respect every part of my life. He won’t just tolerate my reality; he will embrace it. He will see my sibling not as an obstacle, but as family. A supportive partner will take the time to understand my role and grow with me instead of seeing it as a limitation.
And most importantly, I deserve love, the best love out there.
I am not just a neurotypical sibling. I am a person who deserves love, companionship, and joy. My responsibility does not make me unworthy of finding someone who will embrace my world.
There is someone who will choose this life with me.
Finding love as a neurotypical sibling is not just about romance; it’s about finding someone who sees my whole world and chooses to be part of it. And I will not compromise on that. While the worries remain, I choose to believe that love, when true, will always find a way to understand, support, and grow alongside me.
In other words, I am trusting God!
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